{"id":2225,"date":"2009-02-23T16:25:43","date_gmt":"2009-02-23T21:25:43","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.allyngibson.net\/?p=2225"},"modified":"2009-02-23T16:25:43","modified_gmt":"2009-02-23T21:25:43","slug":"on-existential-angst","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.allyngibson.com\/?p=2225","title":{"rendered":"On Existential Angst"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Bear with me.  I&#8217;m suffering some existential angst.<\/p>\n<p>A friend e-mailed me on Friday afternoon.  I&#8217;d written her about some recent doings in my life, and in her reply she asked a basic question.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Why are you writing science-fiction?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>She didn&#8217;t put it <i>quite<\/i> like that.  But that was the point she danced around.<\/p>\n<p>The reason for the question was obvious.  I&#8217;d written about myself, and I&#8217;d written it like a story.  I&#8217;d painted a picture, and somehow that picture, for her, became evocative and genuine and moving and, above all, <i>real<\/i>.<\/p>\n<p>So why was I describing myself as a science-fiction writer?<\/p>\n<p>Why didn&#8217;t I go mainstream?<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;ve been asked this before.  &#8220;<a href=\"http:\/\/www.allyngibson.com\/?page_id=904\">Make-Believe<\/a>&#8221; prompted the question two years ago, and I&#8217;d always brushed it off &mdash; &#8220;I don&#8217;t think I&#8217;d have any faculty there.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Yet, this was a friend, someone who has known me for the better part of a decade, asking the question.<\/p>\n<p>And, for the first time, I find I&#8217;m really <i>considering<\/i> the implications.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;ve always thought of myself as &#8220;genre.&#8221;  But truthfully, I sometimes feel I have nothing to <i>say<\/i> in the genre.<\/p>\n<p>It&#8217;s curious.<\/p>\n<p>Hence, the existential angst.<\/p>\n<p>Thinking aloud.  Just thinking aloud.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Bear with me. I&#8217;m suffering some existential angst. A friend e-mailed me on Friday afternoon. I&#8217;d written her about some recent doings in my life, and in her reply she asked a basic question. &#8220;Why are you writing science-fiction?&#8221; She didn&#8217;t put it quite like that. But that was the point she danced around. The<a class=\"more-link\" href=\"http:\/\/www.allyngibson.com\/?p=2225\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">&#8220;On Existential Angst&#8221;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[75],"tags":[4093,4102],"class_list":["post-2225","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-writing","tag-life","tag-writing","entry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.allyngibson.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2225","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.allyngibson.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.allyngibson.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.allyngibson.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.allyngibson.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2225"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/www.allyngibson.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2225\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.allyngibson.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2225"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.allyngibson.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2225"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.allyngibson.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2225"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}