A quick summation. I've been suffering panic attacks. Since Saturday, to be exact. Long-time Allynologists will tell you that I have a lot going on in my life right now, and very little of it is stable. Saturday afternoon at work, I tensed up, my breathing tightened, and I felt a fight-or-flight response building insideContinue reading “On My Bad Day”
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On Using Monster
Lately I've been going through Monster.com and taking a look at job openings in the Baltimore metropolitan area. I've also been going through the Baltimore Sun website doing same. And I've made a shocking discovery. I can't remember what I've applied for. It should be obvious–sometimes the link is a different color because it's aContinue reading “On Using Monster”
On 39 Questions
Borrowed from Keith, 39 questions! 1. Have you ever been searched by the cops? Yes. 2. Do you close your eyes on roller coasters? Not normally, no. 3. When's the last time you've been sledding? About ten years ago. 4. Would you rather sleep with someone else, or alone? Being single I'm quite used toContinue reading “On 39 Questions”
On Random Thoughts
My Sherlock Holmes coffee mug has disappeared. I don't know where it could have gone, but if I find it in my grandmother's purse…. The Beetle must be a magnet for mishaps. Today, rear-ended in precisely the same quadrant as the previous accident. Similar damage, too. People are fucking idiots. I'm reading a sequel toContinue reading “On Random Thoughts”
On Exhaustion
I am feeling massively, monstrously exhausted. The last month–from the long hours at work to the emotional devestation I felt when Perceval was gone those eleven days–has taken its toll. I've had some sherbert, lime flavored. My grandmother likes sherbert, and I usually buy her orange. Today, I felt like lime. All things being equal,Continue reading “On Exhaustion”
On Living With My Grandmother.
Sodding bloody grife. Just when you think you have things figured out…. While I fret about the next phase in my life, my grandmother's grasp on reality rolls on like a sine wave. She has a younger brother, Calvin. Calvin is in his low eighties. He had bypass surgery within the past five years. LastContinue reading “On Living With My Grandmother.”
On Obituaries
I have the local paper delivered to the house every morning. Years ago when I moved to Raleigh it was something I wanted to do–have home newspaper delivery–because I'd never lived anywhere, except during college, where there was home newspaper delivery. So, naturally, I wanted to get my newspaper in the morning, read it overContinue reading “On Obituaries”
On a Positive Google Result
For years I've typed into Internet search engines the names of people I knew long ago–high school friends and sweethearts, college girlfriends, the like. Some people just can't be found. Not everyone's wired. Not everyone does something to be listed somewhere, somehow on the Internet. Today I found someone. Junior year she sat next toContinue reading “On a Positive Google Result”
On Looking Back Ten Years
Seen many places: THEN : May 1996 NOW : May 2006 1) How old were you? THEN: 22 NOW: 32 2) Where did you work? THEN: Payless ShoeSource, Charlottesville, Virginia NOW: EB Games, Cary, North Carolina 3) Where did you live? THEN: Charlottesville, Virginia NOW: Raleigh, North Carolina 4) How was your hair style? THEN:Continue reading “On Looking Back Ten Years”
On an Ocean Metaphor
Emotions, like waves, come rolling in from the ocean. Sometimes there's calm, peace, tranquility, like sitting on the beach at midnight, moon overhead, and the lights of distant ships on the horizon barely visible through the mist. Sometimes they crash in waves, kicked up by storm or tide. Today, emotions crashed against the shore withContinue reading “On an Ocean Metaphor”